When things go bad...
I don't understand how minute I can be so happy and carefree, but the next it's like the world is crashing down around me. It's getting way too hard to try and keep up with all of these ups and downs. I can't deal with this and I don't know how much longer I can cope with things. At least not with how things are right now. For me, I know that things have gotten bad when I decide by myself that now is the time to go and see the doctors. Going to the doctors is such a big thing for me to be able to do. This time around it took me a month to finally build up the courage to actually go and see a doctor. Honestly, I probably wouldn't be as bad if I would just go to the doctors as soon as I realise I need to. Like if I went straight away, I wouldn't have made myself feel so worthless for as long as I have been.